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heyoooo

sirius being 'too much of a rebel' to get married continues to crack me up. i imagine he was just too much of a fucking narcissist as a kid to buy into romance (james wins the maurauders contest of 'most well-adjusted' btw) and post-azkaban is just too fucking broken to consider it. not in the sense of... parts don't work, but he thinks he's too broken; what could he bring to the table? and his world gets so small... anyway what i'm saying is he's basically aromantic, not by choice or inclination but because he's just a very singular person who honestly finds platonic relationships more meaningful for him personally. he admires romantic love, but doesn't seek it for himself. he has a huge capacity to love, but it's not romantic or sexual. i don't imagine a small amount of that is tied up in being the heir to the ancient and most noble etc

not that i could never see him in a romantic relationship, but it would take some work. there's one thing, being selfish, but its another thing being selfish at the expense of someone he likes. and he'd have to like someone, post azkaban, to consider it. it's just a waste of time otherwise.

tl;dr sirius is a really fucked up dbag, pass it on

Sirius, at least, seemed to understand how Harry was feeling. Admittedly, his letters were just as empty of proper news as Ron and Hermione’s, but at least they contained words of caution and consolation instead of tantalizing hints:
I know this must be frustrating for you... Keep your nose clean and everything will be okay… Be careful and don’t do anything rash...

godson? best friend? spiritual doppelganger? who caaares

The voices of Dudley’s gang died away; they were out of sight, heading along Magnolia Road. There you go, Sirius, Harry thought dully. Nothing rash. Kept my nose clean. Exactly the opposite of what you’d have done.

well thats because your godfather is a terrible role model harry........

The old woman was drooling, her eyes were rolling, the yellowing skin of her face stretched taut as she screamed; and all along the hall behind them, the other portraits awoke and began to yell, too, so that Harry actually screwed up his eyes at the noise and clapped his hands over his ears. Lupin and Mrs. Weasley darted forward and tried to tug the curtains shut over the old woman, but they would not close and she screeched louder than ever, brandishing clawed hands as though trying to tear at their faces.

“Filth! Scum! By-products of dirt and vileness! Half-breeds, mutants, freaks, begone from this place! How dare you befoul the house of my fathers -”

Tonks apologized over and over again, dragging the huge, heavy troll’s leg back off the floor; Mrs. Weasley abandoned the attempt to close the curtains and hurried up and down the hall, stunning all the other portraits with her wand; and a man with long black hair came charging out of a door facing Harry.

“Shut up, you horrible old hag, shut UP!” he roared, seizing the curtain Mrs. Weasley had abandoned.

The old woman’s face blanched. “Yoooou!” she howled, her eyes popping at the sight of the man. “Blood traitor, abomination, shame of my flesh!”

“I said - shut - UP!” roared the man, and with a stupendous effort he and Lupin managed to force the curtains closed again.

im sure that was very therapeutic for you sirius golf claps

Harry, who had expected a better welcome, noted how hard and bitter Sirius’s voice sounded. He followed his godfather to the bottom of the steps and through a door leading into the basement kitchen.

dog / cage metaphors etc etc (honestly though i find it hilarious that sirius gets the dog metaphors, he's not, actually, a loyal person? at least not in the traditional sense. he doesn't do what he's told, he doesn't follow orders, he doesn't listen, he doesn't sit, stay, or fetch. as animal metaphors go, it's kind of shitty. except the grim thing; iirc, sirius is always surrounded by death metaphors and imagery.)

(the fact that he looks like a grim in dog form is a nod to his black heritage, his ultimate destiny as The Dead Guy, the fact that all his friends are dead, the whole going-to-azkaban thing, it all adds up. but the dog metaphor alone just doesn't work.)

(i think, if i had to do a watsonian spin on it, i'd say animagus forms depend on who you are at the moment you master the spell. sirius was unquestionably loyal to his friends, and learning the spell with his friends, and for his friends. it was a canine loyalty. but now? all his friends are dead, and he's not really loyal-- even if he's on someone's side, he ends up doing things to suit his own interest. He loves, sure, but he's not really mature enough to bide his time and control himself; if he was before azkaban, that ability has deteriorated. still a dog, though.)

(honestly that's a great metaphor for sirius' mental state in general. all his memories, his roots, everything he was, it all got twisted up from azkaban, either frozen in place or removed completely. still a dog, though. still stuck in the form, the shape, of who he was before. he can't move forward.)

“Had a good summer so far?”

“No, it’s been lousy,” said Harry.

For the first time, something like a grin flitted across Sirius’s face.

SEEK THERAPY

“Personally, I’d have welcomed a Dementor attack. A deadly struggle for my soul would have broken the monotony nicely. You think you’ve had it bad, at least you’ve been able to get out and about, stretch your legs, get into a few fights... I’ve been stuck inside for a month.”

what you've described are all the symptoms of fatal gryffindor syndrome.

seriously though (sigh), sirius is mirroring harry here; they both desperately want some sort of acclaim or recognition or action. i don't feel like sirius is after recognition so much (anymore), but god knows he wants activity. i honestly think he was happiest when he was traveling around. after azkaban, he probably has intense wanderlust. i don't think he had before, though. he was just probably the average sort of too-charming-for-his-own-good lazy asshole who only ever seems to stumble drunkenly out of wildean pastiches (oh good god, look, i'm clever tonight).

AS I WAS SAYING the consistency with which a 'thirst for glory and action' pops up in this series has always been ??? for me since i long for obscurity; harry has it, sirius has it, its dumbles' fatal flaw, it's the foundation of gryffindor, etc etc. i'm getting off subject. SIRIUS YOU ARE A DOUCHE there, i've summarized all my notes, the end.

“Because the Ministry of Magic’s still after me, and Voldemort will know all about me being an Animagus by now, Wormtail will have told him, so my big disguise is useless. There’s not much I can do for the Order of the Phoenix... or so Dumbledore feels.”

There was something about the slightly flattened tone of voice in which Sirius uttered Dumbledore’s name that told Harry that Sirius, too, was not very happy with the Headmaster. Harry felt a sudden upsurge of affection for his godfather.

okay 1) you're both idiots, 2) i wonder how much of sirius' 'not very happy' feelings with dumbles are the result of being cooped up again (a fair amount) and how much of it is the knowledge that dumbles never lifted a finger to drag sirius' sorry ass out of azkabibble when he had the chance. i mean, it's not dumbles' job, we know that. but sirius is a biased, bitter prick. dumbledore is this omniscient gandalf jesus figure, he can do no wrong, he is surrounded in a heavenly light, he has all these bits of whimsical wisdom to share at just the right time, he's looking out for you, he heads the order sirius commits his time and energy too, and then when sirius needs him the most... wow! was that your finger, pettigrew? ouch.

anyway, what i'm saying is, i think sirius' agitation with dumbles isn't 'hes done this to me' so much as 'hes done this to me again'. dooont think harry would pick up on that tho, i mean, he sees sirius through dad colored glasses (as opposed to, you know, the coke bottle ones).

“Oh yeah,” said Sirius sarcastically. “Listening to Snape’s reports, having to take all his snide hints that he’s out there risking his life while I’m sat on my backside here having a nice comfortable time...”

oh professor snaps (which is what my autocorrect keeps changing 'snape' to, and is thus obviously snape's counterpart in the alternate universe where jkr just really wanted to write about the gritty underground of competitive jive dancing)

“Trying to make this place fit for human habitation,” said Sirius, waving a hand around the dismal kitchen. “No one’s lived here for ten years, not since my dear mother died, unless you count her old house-elf, and he’s gone round the twist - hasn’t cleaned anything in ages.”

sirius, that thing is fucking certifiable.

“Yes,” said Sirius, surveying it with distaste. “Finest fifteenth-century goblin-wrought silver, embossed with the Black family crest.”

i like that he still fucking remembers all this crap. he's just so weary with it. young!sirius would have sneered; old!sirius just sighs and tells you all his first cousins. he's a lot more tired, and he's also... accepted things more? also i imagine outliving your inbred mother does wonders for the soul.

“I’ve been meaning to tell you, Sirius, there’s something trapped in that writing desk in the drawing room, it keeps rattling and shaking. Of course, it could just be a Boggart, but I thought we ought to ask Alastor to have a look at it before we let it out.”

“Whatever you like,” said Sirius indifferently.

but if you looked very closely, he was actually blinking 'please burn the house down' in morse code

“I look forward to it,” said Sirius. Harry heard the sarcasm in his voice, but he was not sure that anyone else did.

oh how youve changed digby

“Molly doesn’t approve of Mundungus,” said Sirius in an undertone.

“How come he’s in the Order?” Harry said, very quietly.

“He’s useful,” Sirius muttered. “Knows all the crooks - well, he would, seeing as he’s one himself. But he’s also very loyal to Dumbledore, who helped him out of a tight spot once. It pays to have someone like Dung around, he hears things we don’t. But Molly thinks inviting him to stay for dinner is going too far. She hasn’t forgiven him for slipping off duty when he was supposed to be tailing you.”

look at you, you paragon of maturity, you, gossiping with a fifteen year old

“Since when did someone have to be in the Order of the Phoenix to ask questions?” asked Sirius. “Harry’s been trapped in that Muggle house for a month. He’s got the right to know what’s been happen—”

yes please continue living through harry. but ANYWAY sirius is a surprisingly good godfather, all things considered. ithink this is in part because harry asks so little of sirius, but sirius honestly has this internal patience and philosophical understanding of the world,too. he's... calm.i imagine one can blame azkaban. but what i'm saying is that sirius isn't nearly as maladjusted as he could be. he is capable of giving harry insightful, meaningful advice and helping him with his life as well as he can. i think it would have been a disaster if harry ever actually physically moved in with him, because cool uncles (though sirius is much more substantial than the whole 'cool uncle' deal, imo he's just a good godfather) are less cool when they can't remember to bag lunches for you (to turn a phrase).

“It’s not my fault you haven’t been told what the Order’s doing,” said Sirius calmly, “that’s your parents’ decision. Harry, on the other hand -”

“It’s not down to you to decide what’s good for Harry!” said Mrs. Weasley sharply.

all said, though, it would probably be healthier, emotionally, if sirius was allowed to properly adopt harry. then he might stop trying to become him.

not that he's actually trying to, you know, become anyone. but he takes a creepy amount of joy in knowing that they're both suffering the same slights. sirius is a surprisingly good godfather, but he's not excellent. he's still caught half between adulthood and childhood; his impulses are often childish, they're just... expressed in an adult manner. he lacks maturity, but not patience. he's grown up, he's just not an adult.

azkaban aged him, but it mostly just made him tired. so now there's a tired blanket fallen over the asshole dingus ~padfoot~ douche that he was. but that dickwad is still there, poking through. it gets him killed.

if he'd matured, really grown into himself, that part of himself would have ebbed and eventually broken up, and the good bits of it would have strengthened, and the bad parts would have dissipated. that's maturity. but instead, he's just sirius 2.0: tired, depressed padfoot. a bully retired, instead of a bully grown out of bullying.

what a dumbass.

“He’s only fifteen and -”

“And he’s dealt with as much as most in the Order,” said Sirius, “and more than some.”

“No one’s denying what he’s done!” said Mrs. Weasley, her voice rising, her fists trembling on the arms of her chair. “But he’s still -”

“He’s not a child!” said Sirius impatiently.

“He’s not an adult either!” said Mrs. Weasley, the color rising in her cheeks.

“He’s not James, Sirius!” “I’m perfectly clear who he is, thanks, Molly,” said Sirius coldly. “I’m not sure you are!” said Mrs. Weasley.

“Sometimes, the way you talk about him, it’s as though you think you’ve got your best friend back!”

“What’s wrong with that?” said Harry.

“What’s wrong, Harry, is that you are not your father, however much you might look like him!” said Mrs. Weasley, her eyes still boring into Sirius. “You are still at school and adults responsible for you should not forget it!”

what a dingus

but anyway molly is overly hawkish here, but she's right. and nobody sees it because sirius is the 'cool uncle' and he actively uses that veneer to hide his failures, which, i think, he's perfectly aware of, but lacks the amount of energy and maturity necessary to deal with (thanks azkaban)

when he was younger, he hid his bullshit under this ~charming~ veneer, and he does the same thing, now. it's that blanket metaphor again. if he'd actually matured instead of just growing tirerer and olderer, he'd have finally grown up enough to deal with his faults, acknowledge them and put them aside. instead, he carries them around and hides them behind the good old charm

hey, it worked on james. (honestly if sirius is romantically in love with anyone it's james) (js) (this is what i get for never properly being in hp fandom hahahaha) (I DID IT WRONG I BROKE IT) (disclaimer: i do not actually think sirius is / was romantically in love with james. but i do think his post-azkaban obsession with james has the fandom limb sensations of lost love)

(i could write you a meta on how sirius is a weirdly feminine character, in that his heroic arc is all classically female dramatic tropes: nurturing, mourning, and adjusting to loss. it would be incredibly easy to make him into a female character for an au or whatever. i mean, i'm sure hp fandom has already done it. but to tie it back to the previous parenthesis-- mourning lost love is also a very feminine dramatic trope, classically.)

“Meaning I’m an irresponsible godfather?” demanded Sirius, his voice rising.

y...es?

“Meaning you have been known to act rashly, Sirius, which is why Dumbledore keeps reminding you to stay at home and -”

“We’ll leave my instructions from Dumbledore out of this, if you please!” said Sirius loudly.

if you please omfg sirius. i vividly imagine his voice cracking on please. IF YOU PLE^ASE!

“He’s not your son,” said Sirius quietly.

lol sirius u fuckin hypocrite

“Yes,” said Mrs. Weasley, her lip curling, “the thing is, it’s been rather difficult for you to look after him while you’ve been locked up in Azkaban, hasn’t it?”

Sirius started to rise from his chair.

“Molly, you’re not the only person at this table who cares about Harry,” said Lupin sharply.

“Sirius, sit down.”

1. wow low fucking blow mrs w (i dont imagine she likes sirius much personally. respects him? yes. wants what's best for him? certainly. cares for him? of course. but likes him?), 2. nice of you to pop in lupin, 3. sit, sirius. stay.

“Well, as everyone thinks I’m a mad mass-murderer and the Ministry’s put a ten thousand Galleon price on my head, I can hardly stroll up the street and start handing out leaflets, can I?” said Sirius restlessly.

it's not self pity it's more... grim acceptance (get it??) and bitterness

At the sight of Sirius, Kreacher flung himself into a ridiculously low bow that flattened his snoutlike nose on the floor.
“Stand up straight,” said Sirius impatiently. “Now, what are you up to?”

sirius has known this elf his whole life, and both under and over estimates him. he has a child's appreciation of his work abilities-- kreacher cleaned his room from when he was a little baby, likely-- but also overestimates his loyalty, bc pureblood! sirius also likely has a lot of pent up misplaced frustration with the little fucker, since hes like his mother's still-living avatar on earth.

tldr sirius doesnt want to deal with the past, he just wants to avoid / escape it, and if forced to confront it, he'll spit on it

imo if pushed hell change but in canon hes never pushed in the right way.... it's slow and antagonistic. sirius needs to be forced to face it. also the fact that he probably feels like he's on borrowed time in canon makes him especially resistant to change

im rambling lol gj me

“My mother didn’t have a heart, Kreacher,” snapped Sirius. “She kept herself alive out of pure spite.”

youuuuu would knowwwww

i think hes a lot more like his mother than hes willing to admit

all we know about her was that she was stubborn, completely uncompromising and unflinching in her beliefs, believed in a very strong black / white good / bad morality, and very pushy and occasionally nasty, and believed herself better than others for deeply ingraned inborn reasns

which could all describe sirius, especially pre azkaban

tbh i think sirius was a lot like harry at 11, re: house sorting. could have been slytherin or gryffindor, easily. i feel like that's the case for a lot of kids, tbh (canonically, it's implied that's harry, snape, dumbles...?). he asked the hat to basically put him in gryffindor bc he knew itd piss off his parents, not really thinking forward in any meaningful way, just, he wanted to piss mommy off again and get her attention (i headcanon walpurgia as ignoring sirius as punishment, rather than hitting or yelling at him, but this only made him act out more seeking attention).

and then, being there surrounded by people who weren't obsessed with blood purity for the first time in his life, he actually had a legitimate reason to hate and disagree with mommy (because lbr what eleven year old is going to question their parents on racism-esque issues when they're surrounded entirely by other racists?) and he loved it and became very passionate about it. finally the matter was confirmed: sirius was right and mommy was wrong, and for the first time sirius had friends who were interesting and flashy and attention grabbing and it was great and mommy hated it.

and then regulus, seeing this horrible explosion, was told by the hat, well, you can be in either, and not wanting or enjoying the negative attention sirius got, reg went in the complete opposite direction

~feels~

“Keep muttering and I will be a murderer!” said Sirius irritably as he slammed the door shut on the elf.

hes so awful (i love him)

“He’s been alone too long,” said Sirius, “taking mad orders from my mother’s portrait and talking to himself, but he was always a foul little -”

“If you could just set him free,” said Hermione hopefully, “maybe -”

“We can’t set him free, he knows too much about the Order” said Sirius curtly. “And anyway, the shock would kill him. You suggest to him that he leaves this house, see how he takes it.”

1) sirius is a bit elf racist, 2) technically hes right tho, freeing kreacher is not honestly in anyones best interests, kreacher included, 3) why didnt they just free him before the order moved in and then dumbles could put him somewhere safe, like antartica, and he can play with pureblood polarbears. i mean dumbles is clearly callous when it suits him, and canonically nobody gives a shit about house elves GOD I HAVENT READ THIS BOOK SINCE I WAS 14..........................

“I used to be there,” said Sirius, pointing at a small, round, charred hole in the tapestry, rather like a cigarette burn. “My sweet old mother blasted me off after I ran away from home - Kreacher’s quite fond of muttering the story under his breath.”

so she didnt blast him off when he was sorted gryffindor

(i like the idea that walpurgia blasted sirius off bc it was a personal betrayal rather than BLOOD TRAITOR BLOOD TRAITOR BLOOD TRAITor idk i just like the idea that walpurgia actually legit loved sirius but she just didnt know what the fuck to do with him and wasnt willing to compromise her ideals for him and the whole thing fell out of her hand. a more patient, quiet child, still acting out but acting with tact, still sorted into gryffindor, could have done better, but sirius had to be the most flashy bastard ever. this isn't to say its all sirius' fault, his mom has a responsiblity to be his mom, but i think it's more complex than 'good heroic perfect charming baby born of evil family')

(tldr some parents are just not equipt to deal with their children, and the children suffer)

“Your dad’s place,” said Sirius. “Your grandparents were really good about it; they sort of adopted me as a second son. Yeah, I camped out at your dad’s in the school holidays, and when I was seventeen I got a place of my own. My Uncle Alphard had left me a decent bit of gold - he’s been wiped off here, too, that’s probably why - anyway, after that I looked after myself. I was always welcome at Mr. and Mrs. Potter’s for Sunday lunch, though.”

see this is why i think that ~im such a rebel wheeeoo~ bit is an act, among other reasons. you've gotta be fucking organized and on top of your shit to make that work when you're 17, especially if you've probably been sheltered and waited on your whole goddamn life. i bet the potters helped and the place was occasionally a fucking sty, but the fact remains, he is clearly capable of organization and patience, etc, he just doesn't care to display it with consistency in social situations because he thinks loud brash attention is superior.

i bet he was alphard's favorite nephew tho, i rly like that idea.

“He was younger than me,” said Sirius, “and a much better son, as I was constantly reminded.”

NOT THAT IM UHH JEALOUS OR ANYTHING I MEAN ITS NOT LIKE JEALOUSY MAKES ME ACT OUT IN CERTAIN WAYS AND REJECT PEOPLE LIKE FOR EXAMPLE SNAPE WHO IS A MUCH BETTER SLYTHERIN THAN ME AND DOESN'T HAVE THE DECENCY TO BE CHARMING OR COOL LIKE I AM I MEan

cough

(love me mommy)

“I haven’t looked at this for years. There’s Phineas Nigellus… my great-great-grandfather, see?… least popular Headmaster Hogwarts ever had… and Araminta Mehflua… cousin of my mothers… tried to force through a Ministry Bill to make Muggle-hunting legal… and dear Aunt Elladora… she started the family tradition of beheading house-elves when they got too old to carry tea trays… of course, any time the family produced someone halfway decent they were disowned. I see Tonks isn’t on here. Maybe that’s why Kreacher won’t take orders from her - he’s supposed to do whatever anyone in the family asks him -”

1) FOR MY NOTES 2) lol the foreshadowing (narcissaaaaa)

“You and Tonks are related?” Harry asked, surprised.

“Oh, yeah, her mother Andromeda was my favorite cousin,” said Sirius, examining the tapestry closely.

“No, Andromeda’s not on here either, look -” He pointed to another small round burn mark between two names, Bellatrix and Narcissa. “Andromeda’s sisters are still here because they made lovely, respectable pure-blood marriages, but Andromeda married a Muggle-born, Ted Tonks, so -”

but were andromeda and sirius friends before she ran off with tonks, or did they have to awkwardly meetup afterward like 'yeah wow being disowned sucks??'

“The pure-blood families are all interrelated,” said Sirius. “If you’re only going to let your sons and daughters marry pure-bloods your choice is very limited; there are hardly any of us left. Molly and I are cousins by marriage and Arthur’s something like my second cousin once removed. But there’s no point looking for them on here - if ever a family was a bunch of blood traitors it’s the Weasleys.”

i wonder if sirius would have married any of the black sisters if hed been a good little boy and towed the line. or would that have been too close? walpurgia and orion were... first cousins also? i wonder who the black boys would have been made to marry if walpurgia got her way.

“Does it matter if she’s my cousin?” snapped Sirius. “As far as I’m concerned, they’re not my family. She’s certainly not my family. I haven’t seen her since I was your age, unless you count a glimpse of her coming into Azkaban. D’you think I’m proud of having a relative like her?”

“Sorry,” said Harry quickly, “I didn’t mean - I was just surprised, that’s all -”

“It doesn’t matter, don’t apologize,” Sirius mumbled. He turned away from the tapestry, his hands deep in his pockets. “I don’t like being back here,” he said, staring across the drawing room. “I never thought I’d be stuck in this house again.”

grownup of the year award goes to.............

“They must be bad if you prefer this place,” said Sirius gloomily.

They found an unpleasant-looking silver instrument, something like a many-legged pair of tweezers, which scuttled up Harry’s arm like a spider when he picked it up, and attempted to puncture his skin. Sirius seized it and smashed it with a heavy book entitled Nature’s Nobility: A Wizarding Genealogy.

awww

“It was my father’s,” said Sirius, throwing the ring into the sack. “Kreacher wasn’t quite as devoted to him as to my mother, but I still caught him snogging a pair of my father’s old trousers last week.”

i wonder why kreacher liked walpurgia so much. maybe she was nice to him. ('nice'.)

“Don’t lose your temper,” said Sirius abruptly. “Be polite and stick to the facts.”

1) FANCY THAT COMING FROM YOU MISTER 2) i imagine this is something he thought himself because lawd i bet his trial went excellently (or wait did he not have a trial? i guess i have to reread prisoner of azkabibble too. but i still like the image of him in his grungy little cell daydreaming about what his trial should have been, or would have gone, etc)

Sirius had put up a very good show of happiness on first hearing the news, wringing Harry’s hand and beaming just like the rest of them. Soon, however, he was moodier and surlier than before, talking less to everybody, even Harry, and spending increasing amounts of time shut up in his mother’s room with Buckbeak.

ADULTHOOD

i like to think he's at least semi aware of what a tit hes eing about that but oh my god man

anyway i envision sirius as like... semiaware of all his bs? biut i think deep down there is a part of him that thinks he's about to die, or worse, get dragged back to azkaban, and so he deprioritizes fixing his bullshit problems, wbc when hes only got a few months of freedom / life left, he feels like, why waste time on the painful process of self improvement? it hurts and hes not good at it, he should be doing things that hes good at and are fun

whichi imagine is anotherreason why 'wasting his tme' stuck in grimmauldplace chafes so much

“Don’t you go feeling guilty!” said Hermione sternly, after Harry had confided some of his feelings to her and Ron while they scrubbed out a mouldy cupboard on the third floor a few days later. “You belong at Hogwarts and Sirius knows it. Personally, I think he’s being selfish.”

10 pts 2 gryffindor

“No one would have made me a prefect, I spent too much time in detention with James. Lupin was the good boy, he got the badge.”

“I think Dumbledore might have hoped I would be able to exercise some control over my best friends,” said Lupin. “I need scarcely say that I failed dismally.”

i am jack's overwhelming lack of surprise.

Harry’s mood suddenly lifted. His father had not been a prefect either. All at once the party seemed much more enjoyable; he loaded up his plate, feeling doubly fond of everyone in the room.

lol harry u little prick. i like how jkr writes his childishness though? i read the book for the first time when i was roughly his age, so i missed the sort of... gentle condemnation of his hypocrisy.

“That’s Dumbledore’s brother Aberforth, only time I ever met him, strange bloke… that’s Dorcas Meadowes, Voldemort killed her personally… Sirius, when he still had short hair… and… there you go, thought that would interest you!”

HA so he let it grow out in azkaban (because who in their right mind would give him scissors) and then he just... kept it?

A bear-like black dog had appeared at Harry’s side as he was clambering over the various trunks cluttering the hall to get to Mrs. Weasley.

sirius u fucking goober. (but he honestly does love and adore harry. i don't think he'd have nearly as much trouble sorting his reaction to harry if he didn't.)

But the great black dog gave a joyful bark and gamboled around them, snapping at pigeons and chasing its own tail. Harry couldn’t help laughing. Sirius had been trapped inside for a very long time.

i think a dog's capacity to love, feel joy, and mourn is very siriusish, though.

For one brief moment, the great black dog reared on to its hind legs and placed its front paws on Harry’s shoulders, but Mrs. Weasley shoved Harry away towards the train door, hissing, “For heaven’s sake, act more like a dog, Sirius!”

u dingus

SIRIUS - BLACK AS HE’S PAINTED?
Notorious mass murderer or innocent singing sensation?

uhhh can i phone a friend?

For fourteen years Sirius Black has been believed guilty of the mass murder of twelve innocent Muggles and one wizard. Black’s audacious escape from Azkaban two years ago has led to the widest manhunt ever conducted by the Ministry of Magic. None of us has ever questioned that he deserves to be recaptured and handed back to the Dementors.

BUT DOES HE?

articles sirius would like to own.